7.10.2003

I feel a pent-up need for exposure and alcohol.

So I feel like going out this Friday night or Saturday night... and it always comes down to, who am I going to go out with? It's frustrating enough to work that out that in the end I just don't go out. It's getting increasingly frustrating.

It's hard to get an optimal number and type of people from among my friends in a group to go out so that we all have an enjoyable time. Everyone's always AWOL these days. And I don't think I could tag along with a bunch of singles and expect to have a wild and rowdy time with them without feeling a little bit guilty.

So how do I fix this problem? Increase my circle of friends?

Well, damnit... I shouldn't have to go with a group. Alone should be enough, or just with the boyfriend should be enough, since I just want to get out and dance and drink.

What's preventing going out as a couple from being more of an attractive alternative to going out with a group of friends? Probably just the fact that I've never enjoyed going out with just my boyfriends in the past. But maybe it'd be different now with Babe...