I mean, I can do things alone... like shop, dine, read, computer, workout, travel for under 10 days, clean, sightsee, shower, dress, party, etc...

I just can't be without a really really close friend or a boyfriend in my life. With no one that close to me, I feel relatively lifeless, which makes me feel pitiful. I can't handle being alone that way, which makes me feel weak. But maybe I'd rather expend more effort making sure that I'm never alone than learning how to be alone.