1.31.2003

No, no... Look away. Don't look at the baby. It's drawing so much attention to itself already. Oh no, I'm looking. I didn't used to look at babies. I can't help looking now. Why? It is not cute. It's spilling drool all over itself! It's creating a mess! Its annoying high-pitched wailing is piercing my eardrums! No, not cute. Why can't I stop looking? Don't look at the baby. It's too cute. No, I don't like babies! I don't want one. I'm too young to have one. No, that's not true anymore. Mom's looking too. Mom loves babies. Mom wants my babies! Stop, baby, stop!

I was having dinner. Chinese New Year's Eve. Same meal, same place, with the same people as on Christmas Eve.