I already feel pressure to decide what to do for New Year's Eve. A couple of options have been sitting in my inbox for some time, urging me to RSVP for this and that ASAP so I don't end up being shut out or paying out of my ass to attend. I dunno that I really want to do any of these options. There's one that I kinda feel like doing, but I also feel as if I shouldn't be feeling like doing it...

Earlier this year, I was determined to party it up with the masses up in the City this time... since I missed doing that last year. But now that I'm not feeling up to par, I'm less willing to put on the ritz & glam, and get out and mingle w/ a ton of strangers.

Hm... I haven't drank in a while. Really drank, that is... I'm not sure why... why I'm not yearning to do so as I did in weeks of yore...