I'm going to make it a point not to make any more friends who are software engineers. I'm sick of being one of the only ones among most of my friends who is not currently programming or otherwise working within the computer industry.

The question is, how did I manage to befriend so many software engineers and not many other types of people? Can I blame geography, demography, or my first software engineer ex-boyfriend, who may have started it all? Am I particularly attracted to the software engineer type? Or are they particularly attracted to my type of person?

Actally, it seems like awhile since anyone, besides my man, has been mentally or physically attracted to me. I hadn't really stopped to think about that a whole lot until lately. It's been some time since the last time I had even a small suspicion that someone might be interested in having slightly more than a simple friendship with me.

Who knows, maybe things would be completely different if I was a female software engineer... *smirk*

But am I ok with that? Am I ok with not being as attractive? Am I ok with not having people-magnet status? Do I mind that I don't catch people, particularly guys, looking at me anymore?

No.

I'm going to try for a second bloom. I'm done trying to make the most of myself as I am now. I'm more than ready to start creating myself. I would like to create Jennie the superhero, the rockstar, the goddess, the irresistible, the unforgettable...

The transformation commences today.