8.01.2003

I think the key is for me to remember that the reason I'm not engaged or married right now is that I don't want to be.

It's not because I don't deserve to be. It's not because I'm a particularly late late-bloomer (though I was in HS). It's not because I'm not mature, interesting, attractive enough to grab for myself a mature, interesting, attractive, marrying man.

It's not because I'm picky to a fault, or that I'm peculiar and rare enough that there are very few and far between good-fits for me out there. It's not because I don't already have a good man, one that's good enough to keep around for a long time.

It's not because of any fault of mine.

It's simply, plainly because I don't want to be...