Maybe I've let my guard down a little too much... and let the media, or my environment, or the "togetherness" of the season and the holidays influence me.

I walk through stores in the mall and see the colors and lights, and smell the smells of Thanksgiving and Christmas. And I think warm "domestic" thoughts. I think I'd love to have a home... a home to decorate. To fill with warm and those colors, lights, and smells. And I'd love to throw dinner parties in my home. I'd love to have a Christmas tree. And I'd love to have loved ones...