What I need is music.

I've always known that. I've always say that. But for how very important it is to me, and for as much as I say so, I haven't made the effort to involve myself in it as much as I should. You've noticed that, huh?

Well, I must do it! The need to emote and express through music will continue to nag, nag, nag me until I take care of it.

Nothing can replace music and making music in my life. Playing sports and games, watching TV and movies, eating and drinking well, buying things, and being otherwise entertained may distract and occupy me or temporarily quell boredom, but will never replace music and can't fill the void that is there when it's not a part of my life.

In the past, it was easy to blame any void and boredom on the people in my life, whether they were my parents, my friends, my ex-boyfriends... But I can no longer blame them. I now have a collection of good friends and a better man, who give me enough to smile and laugh and wonder about.

Life doesn't feel boring and blah because I lack stimulating relationships. It feels boring and blah because I don't have an adequate vent for my creativity and passion.

I've got to get back into making music ASAP. No more dilly-dallying.